2008 Junies and Friends

I don't recall much about the straight and narrow. Although, thinking back . . . . . . . .

Those halcyon days when I had blind faith that I had made the best decision of my life, that I would lose weight and keep it off. I had a single-minded objective of losing weight, and I put everything into it: monitored every morsel that passed my lips, was relentless with exercise (couldn't miss a day because then I would surely die), drank 3 litres of water a day . . . . . blah blah blah. I showed the sort of dedication and commitment that I don't think I've ever displayed for anything else. Then reality hit, the pain from exercise had me taking analgesics just to get through the routine, and then to sleep.

I remember pureeing food just so I could get something nutritious to eat. Hours spent trying to eat a small amount, and I wasn't necessarily losing weight, so of course the only option was to increase the exercise. I knew all along it couldn't last, but I kept it going as long as I could.

I sort of came to my senses, but as is always the case with me, it's an all or nothing process. These days I do no exercise, I eat what I want (and far too much), and you wouldn't know I'd been banded.

A good lesson for anyone starting out. Don't put all your eggs in one basket, because eventually you will come unstuck. It's all fine and dandy while the weight is still moving, but when it slows down or stops, and for an extended period of time, you may need to accept that you will never be exactly what you wanted when you started out. It just may not be physically (or mentally) possible.

Oh dear - I've had my rant. Just very disappointed in myself and it saddens me to think that I could be so dedicated for so long, have made such a commitment, and now lost it all because I just couldn't get there or sustain it.

I wonder how the '50 kgs gone forever' lady is doing. I remember when I'd lost so close to that 100kg mark, making the statement that I would never say it was 'gone forever'. I think at that point I was prepared to say maybe 50kg was gone forever, but I have failed on that count too.

Aaaaahhhh - don't hold your breath for the day I post here that I am back on track and exercising again. It might happen, but it might not. I can't believe I went through all of that pain to be almost back to where I started 3 years ago.

Not looking for words of encouragement. Just stating my situation.

I love your thinking Linda... yes the calories are the same.



I cant tell you how good a cherry ripe would be right now and I am just going insane for somethine chocolaty and evil but I am back on the horse today...its a frigging nag with a sway in its back but me and it are riding the straight and narrow today

Yes it is a new day ladies. At least you are at peace with yourselves. Enjoy every mouthful cos the calories are the same whether you enjoy them or not. Get over it and start again. Good motto.

I am looking forward to my mini break on Saturday.

Must be in the air zippy...had a shocker of a day yesterday, first time I have really pigged out - magnum, cheery ripe, banana lollies...ooooooh it felt good...have the shits with the world currently, so tired, so over people, so not losing weight...what the hell...........yes, today is another day...........

Lar la la laaaaaaa..



Tis I... nothing to tell...well nothing I want to sign my name to anyway.



Just another day of shocking eating... scarfed till I could scarf no more...to add insult to injury a plastic surgeon rang me mid mouthful of bran muffin to discuss what he could do with my belly... kind of rediculous really.



There is always tomorrow.. Today I am feeling depressed..why..who the fark knows but the food appeased me, perhaps temporarily but it appeased me for a while.



I have leart to just go with the flow, in the past I would do this then flog myslelf internally then go on an absolute bender. Now I do the self medicating with what ever edible solace I can grab and be done with it. I relish it then get over it and start again.



I gave up on the trying to work out why I turn to food when I am depressed, instead I choose to embrace the moment then move on.. less devestating than doing a week of guilt eating after the fact.



As someone very wise once said...." what ever gets you through"

They won't even notice!

It is very dark and just starting to rain here. We don't have anything special planned. I offered to take Alan out for lunch but he is happy to stay home and spend the money next weekend when we are away for my birthday. We would have gone to the chowder house in hepburn springs so I will make a prawn chowder instead.

nutha quiet couple of days... fardars day tomorrow... which means more cooking and washing up. All the kids got the husband grog... not that he is a big drinker buuuuut he does like to sit by the fire on a Saturday night after a long week in the salt mines and sip on a beverage.



I am throwing together a BBQ...no surprises there and I wont be alone in the endevour, I think most aussie back yards will be filled with the smoke from blackened snags.



Of course everything is gluten and dairy free... suckers, none of them know it yet but the snags and dips are made from gluten free, dairy free... flavour free ingredients.... Nothing a dousing in gluten/ dairy free marta sauce wont fix.



Sheesh did ya think I was the type to suffer alone... If Im having to go into the food monestary then the rest of these baskets are weaing hair shirts with me

thankyou for that email loosinit... now I feel sick!

Yes a typo it is Metung and I will just be looking at the water not going on it.

It is a nightmare when your computer goes crash. I lost all my photos. They couldn't be retrieved from the hard drive. I have learnt a very valuable lesson and now I back up to an external hard drive.

Hang in there loosingit. You will get you up n go back at some stage.

yes I do understand your delema with the computer. Mine died not so long ago and I made the switch to a laptop...all my photos etc needed to be retreived, it was a nightmare as you said but I faught for them because there were pictures of mum on there and i just couldnt bare to lose them. I was frantic and sick over the ordeal. Thankfully we managed to get it sorted.



It is as you say most miserable a task

Have had nightmares the last few weeks with a new computer (isn't that supposed to be fun?) . . . . . . . trying to get my data across from the old one. Not as easy as I was led to believe. Have a new printer too that is supposed to do everything bar cut your lunch. Needless to say, I have spent innumerable hours on the phone to tech people, as well as LOTS of time researching and trialling stuff myself. Mostly up and running now. The other computer and printer were way beyond what most people would use. Let's face it, anything that's older than about 4 years these days is considered a dinosaur, and mine were considerably older than that, though still functioning reasonably well. Screen was starting to go on the computer, though functionally it was still pretty good.

Other than that, still eating too much, not exercising, and feeling very fat and frumpy. :-(

. . . . . . .and I'm guessing that I made a 'type' too - and I meant typo!

I'm guessing it's a type and actually Metung (between Bairnsdale and Lakes Entrance in Victoria). Linda's gonna do some fishing on the lakes!

sounds like a fabulous idea to me .... now where the heck is Metund?





yes Missy May Loosinit... where is ya

We had a few lovely sunny days. No warmth in it still around 16 but it lifted my spirits seeing some sun. Back to cold and grey today max 10 I think. Our neighbours are at their unit in Maroochydore and it has rained non stop for the week they have been there. Still warm though.

My band is tight. Rocking doesn't help it and then the stress of not knowing what will go down makes the rocking worse. I am at the 6 month mark now. That is when it went away before. I had fill out and went to phuket and had a fabulous holiday and the rocking stopped. Might have to book a ticket somewhere. We are going to Metund for 3 nights on 10 Sept. Hopefully that might stop it.

Where are ya losingit?

afternoon all....berry berry quiet in here... you must all be hunting wabbits.





Not much to report all the same here. Miserable freaking weather after such a gloriously summery few days last week.



We sat out on the back deck last night with tea candles and the chimera going but it got too too cold for lil ol me so I took my drink inside and turned the heater on....Im a sook!

my vim comes from the discovery of mango sorbet...mmmmmmmm yummy



As for stalking... I have been told that finding their personal address and climbing the drain pipe with a syringe between your teeth is considered impolite.... however I think after a fortnight of struggling with not enough fill and turning up at the surgery with your lil belly out, prepped and ready for iminent puncturing in the port hole...is perfectly ok

NAH DAMMIT I didn't waste away one little bit. Now I'm spewin about all that spewing !!

So having fully recovered and having just finished scoffing ice cream I just wanted to let you know your will power is probably with mine ... with the keeper of the lost socks and other things.

I just had a tiny fill on Thursday too .. it didn't even touch the sides. I wonder how soon I can go back for another before it constitutes stalking !

On a Gluten Free note I have several friends who have eliminated this and/or lactose from their diets over the last year and they also are all jumping with renewed vigor and vim.

T

Hey tara...how you doing lovey... did you waste away. Me..I have found some truely wicked gluten and dairy free foods and am seriously in trouble.. now where did I put that will power again

oh dear me...*sigh* yes loosinit... fuzzy wuzzies

Oh man , bummer.
So I think I hear ya sayin I might be aiming a little high with the 57 kilos then ??

Okie - I'll settle for a loss, ANY loss.

I have been known to actually gain weight during a vomiting kha kha bug... not easy but I have managed it

Bwa ha ha ha YES !!
Seriously didn't know that much was even physically possible.

(OH ... and might I add that if I am not 57 kilos lighter at the end of this I am gunna be mighty unhappy !!!!)

holy crap!!!! literally

OMG ... there's 4 ply stuff ???? !!!!

I want it and I want it now.

(Should I add I've had gastro since Sunday)

T